So here I am again at the library... And once again, here I am lacking a computer at home. I'm really hoping the situation gets fixed soon.

Y'know what, though? My computer getting all shagged up has been a bit of a blessing. I've spent an immeasurable amount of time at the library, as opposed to when I had the computer at home. Don't get me wrong; I loved having everything I needed at home. But now, I'm almost forced to study. The only real drawback with not having internet access at home is that I have to blog it up here in a public place with people all around. Thankfully I've got a computer with my back facing the wall.

I'm like that wherever I go, though. I don't like sitting down at a restaurant with my back to the room. I've always been like that, so if anyone's thinking my years of smoking pot has made me paranoid, they're wrong!! Mind you, getting stoned on such a consistent basis did change me a little bit. I don't think there's any harm in being a little paranoid. If I may, I'll put a positive spin on that "condition". I'm on guard. I've constantly got my guard up... and as such, it's a little more difficult to get to me, y'know what I mean? Not just on the outside, but on the inside.

And that brings me to the next thing I wanted to talk about. A girl. There's something to be said about nearly losing someone before you actually realize how good of a thing you've got. Erin is an absolute doll. A treasure. A diamond. I'm not really going to go into detail, but I will say that in true Matthew Baker fashion, I got myself into a predicament that looked a lot different than what it actually turned out to be... and as a result, Erin had nearly walked out on my life. Not cool, man. Not cool at all.

Y'know what else has happened since I last blogged? There's been a death in the family. Nan Baker, my father's mother, passed away during the night last weekend. How did I find out? By checking my email here in the library. Let's just say I wasn't pleased with how I found out. But now that I think about it, it was either that or through a text message. I haven't got the best access to communication, man. Not at all. My phone has been giving me trouble lately, and my computer is f*ked up. It wasn't exactly the best way to find out about the passing of my grandmother, y'know.
Now that I think about it, actually, I'm not really going to talk about that anymore. I may seem like an asshole, but death makes me cold. I don't respond well to people dying. I've grown accustomed to shutting off emotion when I find out about death. You'd be hard pressed to find a time when I cried about the news of a family member's death. Does that make me insensitive? You be the judge.

Let's switch to something a little happier. A little more positive... life!! My sister is having her baby any day now, and I couldn't be more excited. I think anyone who's read my blogs since I started here on Blogworld knows how happy I am for the arrival of my niece. I can't wait to hold her, to feed her, to change her diaper when she shits herself. I almost feel like I'm having a daughter of my own coming into the world, but sadly, I'm not. This is the next best thing, though!! My little baby sister is gonna be a mommy any day now. :)

School is going pretty well, too. I mean, I really enjoy it and all, but my grades aren't like I hoped they would be. I didn't realize how much work actually has to go into it. But I spent a lot of time studying, like I mentioned up above (i think i did, anyway. i don't wanna go check). I hope it's paid off. I had a psych test yesterday morning, and I have a really good feeling about it. Did I pass? I don't know. Time will tell if I've studied the right way so far. I know I didn't pass philosophy, but in all honesty I don't care. I hated that course. It was flat-out crap. No enjoyment at all. None. Zilch. Nada.
I'm more excited about the fall semester, and the fact that I can start up with my linguistics classes. I am really looking forward to learning about language. It's one of the more fascinating things on the planet, as far as I'm concerned. It's definitely the most important form of communication, and as I'm sure you know, communication is the key to any relationship, be it romantic, platonic, or business.

I learned a few spanish words, yesterday... Wanna know how?
Alriiiiiight, I'll tell ya. I have the second season of Prison Break (why just #2? i can't answer... i want all 4, dammit), and in my downtime yesterday (library's closed on a saturday here) I decided to put it on. So after a conversation with Erin, I had the idea to put on the spanish subtitles while I watched a few episodes. Now, don't get me wrong. I couldn't possibly have a conversation with a spanish person, but I can honestly say I have a better understanding of how different languages work. The sentence structure is a lot different than how we roll in the english world. I can't explain what I mean, because I honestly don't know the proper terminology.
We speak a fucked up language. I'm really excited to learn new ones in the next couple of years.

I think I'm gonna take leave of the library for now. Maybe I'll blog it up again in a couple of days if I feel up to it. Knowing me... well.... I could take leave for another two weeks. Who's to say?