"Have you ever seen a one-trick pony in the field, so happy 'n free?"

Okay, let's try this again, shall we?

I made an attempt at writing a blog earlier this afternoon, but I got distracted... I love my mother, but dammit, she can be annoying sometimes. I'm sure some people would say the same about me.

I really look forward to moving into the town, if for no other reason than I will be distraction free when it comes to writing. Ahh who am I kidding? I'm looking forward to moving into town because of more than just the writing. I'll finally be free...

I'll have some much needed independence. I'll be starting school in a few weeks, too. My life is taking a much-desired turn for the better. But I don't need to wax-nostalgic from blogs past. Anyone who's been keeping up knows how bad I want this.

Here's something a little new... Recent events and discovery of certain songs have left me with a desire to travel back in time. I don't know how strong of a desire it is, because I am, as usual, a little weary. I simply do not know what to do here. Matthew N. Baker is just a little confused.

I've been doing plenty of thinking lately... and sometimes I wonder if I'd be better off alone for the rest of my life. Any time I've ever put my heart and soul into a relationship, I've been burned. Every single time.
That's not to say I haven't caused any heartache myself, because I know I have. And while the optimist might say I've gotta break the cycle some time, I just don't know.

Maybe when the time is right... when I make eye contact... maybe then I'll know what's up.
But man, my heart is just aching to fly away.

I want that feeling you get when you hear your favorite love song on the radio. That well of emotion that starts bubbling over when you see your love? I need it. I want it.

But I am still fearful of my heart breaking again. I know it happened a year and a half ago, but I still hurt. The next person I give my heart to better be careful with it.
I wonder what's up with the lovey stuff this afternoon? That's all I've been thinking about lately, but this afternoon it just seems to be the most prevalent thought in my head.

Hmm.... I wanna write more, but at the moment I'm having a bit of a block. I need to go out for a walk later to clear my head. I'll most likely do something up later on tonight.