"Oh what you think about your life is gonna change; change tonight"

If you don't like Matt Dusk, I probably won't like you.

Go download "Back in town". It's a really swingin' tune. I dig it. It turns me on, but not in a sexy sense.

So I sat here for a good fifteen minutes before I started to write tonight. I haven't been writing nearly as often as I want to. Like I said before, and I'm sure any writer will tell you; if you don't use it, you lose it. So that means I must force myself to come up with something at least every two days (maybe three, but no more).


To be perfectly honest, one of the only things that's been on my mind is moving back to St. John's.
Living in Churchill Square.
Going to MUN.
These are a few of my favorite things... blah blah.. raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens. You know the deal.

Really though, I can only say that it seems like this is where my life is headed. MUN. That's all I plan on focusing on in the next five years.

I've lamented my lack of a nice girl. Y'know, maybe it's not such a bad thing that I'm single. I will have much more time to devote to my studies. And, well, to be perfectly realistic, that's why I'm going out there in the first place.

But man... being lonely sucks. Being alone sucks.
Not having someone look forward to seeing you sucks.
There are plenty of things that suck about being single... And when I think about it, I think I'm worse off because of it. I really do.

I thrive when I've got someone near me. Someone I can kiss on the forehead. Someone who's fingers I can kiss when we're holding hands, just because I so choose. Going in for a sneak-attack Spiderman-style kiss if she's sitting on the couch.
Cuddling on the bed after a romp in the sack. ;)
Little things. I dig 'em. That's what I like about having someone around. Those things make me happy. And there's a sad lack of those idiosyncrasies in my life.

Sure, the school is one part of my happiness. I can't deny that. The fact that I'm finally on the road to somewhere makes me smile on the inside, to no end.
But god dammit... that's only part of being happy.

For anyone to say they don't need someone to be happy, and I mean truly happy, well they're just fooling themselves. Or maybe I've got it all wrong. Maybe I'm the one who's fooling himself.

Let it be.

I'd rather be with someone than be alone. I have spent a lot of time thinking about this.

a
lot

Being alone just sucks. I can split my time between a girl and my studies. I know I can.


Oh, I don't think I mentioned this yet, but I may be starting up in the Spring semester, after all. I finally got a m-f'in email from admissions @ MUN the other day, stating that they got my request, and I will recieve correspondance in the mail soon.
So THAT would be a great kick start to my career.
Whatever that career may be.

Speech pathology or teaching. One of those two. To be honest, it's much more likely I'll end up doing the former. I'd have to move to Nova Scotia for a few semesters, but man, that'd be totally worth it. I might end up finding a decent job there.
Nahhh fuck that.

I'd come back to the island. I love it here in Newfoundland.


ohhhh before I go, I want to state that my mouth hurts. I ate one of the cinnamon roles that mom made the other day, and since it was frozen I had to nuke it for a few seconds.
Unbeknownst to me, the f*ing thing gets REALLY hot in the center...


And one more thing... I hope that whomever I manage to come across as a potential ladyfriend knows how to cook. If you wanna win me over, make me cookies.

Being nice wins my heart, but cookies win my soul.