"I belong a long way from here"

My muscles hurt.

I don't know what they're actually supposed to be called. Y'know what I mean. What the scientific name on 'em is.
But it's the muscles that connect your chest to your arms.

I've been doing a lot of pushups lately. I know that's the cause of my pain. But I feel like I almost have to do the pushups. I need to get myself into shape. I'm not really a fan of man-boobs. I'm not saying I look terrible, but man... I certainly wouldn't win any "body of the year" awards. That's definitely for certain.

Quitting smoking was one of the best things I ever could have done for myself. I just passed the four-week mark on Saturday... While it was a gradual thing, it still was a long time comin'. I never really wanted to be a smoker in the first place, but peer-pressure sucked me into it. And nicotine kept me there, handcuffed to her like a dirty whore that won't let you go until you pay.

So in my quest to get back in shape, I've been doing pushups, like I mentioned above. Maybe I'm not even doing them right. I dunno. I didn't expect my chest to actually pain like this. It's not like I can't use my arms or anything, but I just haven't ever bothered to do pushups before, so maybe the muscles I didn't know I had are finally waking up. Next stop is getting on the treadmill. When I move back into the city, I plan on doing much much much walking. Maybe wherever I move into is going to be a decent walking distance from MUN. Hopefully that'll be the case, because like I said, I want to get to walking everywhere.
If it was anywhere along Rennie's River, that'd be even better. That's got a fan-fucking-tastic walking trail, and what makes it even better is that it goes pretty much along most of the city. Well, at least parts of the city that I'd wanna see, anyhow.

Y'know who doesn't get enough credit these days?
REM.
"Strange Currencies" is a fantastic and awesome song. I've got it on right now.
And once again, this song can be tied to love. All these songs I've been listening to lately have had to do with love. Probably because I took the time to pick out the playlist. I'm just trying to fill my head and my heart with nothing but positivity... and y'know what? It's working.

I don't feel any hate that one of my ex girlfriend filled me with. She's one that I don't believe I have ever mentioned in these blogs before. I was with the... ummm... (for lack of a better term) "girl" for just over two years.
In all honesty, it was quite possibly the worst relationship I have ever been in. And I mean that will every possible amount of certainty I can muster. From pretty much the moment we were together, she was a negative person. I don't know what took me so long to get the balls to break it off with her. She constantly tore me down and attacked me, making me feel like shit about myself. I do believe she's the reason I got to smoking so much pot in the first place. The higher I got, the less I had to think about how much of a bitch my girlfriend was.

But now, that's all gone out the window. I'm curious about Alison, and where she's too these days. I haven't seen or heard from her in about a year and a half now... I guess it's not that big of a deal... But hey, that's just how I roll. I can't say she's ever going to be a part of my life from now on, and it's kinda sad. She's the only ex I have that I'm not still friends with, or at least on good speaking terms with. But y'know what? That's okay. That's just how life goes sometimes.

I'm still waiting to hear back from MUN. It seems more and more likely now that I'll be starting up in the fall semester. But y'know, that's alright. It'll give me more time to prepare for it all. I still think I'd like to move into the city in April or May, regardless of whenever I start. It will be a lot easier to find a decent place at that time, as some students will be moving home and giving up their apartments. I just want a nice little one bedroom place, hopefully as quiet as possible. It's likely I'll end up in an apartment building.
My old roomie, Julie, mentioned moving into a house with her friend and myself. I've considered it, and, well, it's still weighing on my mind. I know it'd work out from a "getting along" point, but as far as being alone when I need to be alone, I don't know how well that'd roll.
I guess I can't put too much thought into it, because there's no guarantee it'll even happen.

To tell you the truth, I think I'd actually enjoy it. I really miss talking to Julie on a daily basis. She gave me some excellent advice on how to deal with girls, and I'd like to think I did the same with her when it came to dudes. We were a good pair, as far as roomies go. When I find out about the situation with MUN, I'll have to talk to her about it even more.

I can't wait for the snow to melt.

I also want some candy. I can't wait to move to the city and make trips to the candy store. I love love LOVE chocolate. It's my major weakness. If you ever want to get on my good side and stay there, feed me cookies and chocolate.