"This mountain I must climb feels like a world upon my shoulders"

Ahhh the joys of family.

I can't remember the last time I laughed that hard. Seriously.
It felt really good to have the four of us sitting around that kitchen table again. We were talking about possible names for Heidi's little girl, and, well... I don't think I'm gonna go into great detail. It's not necessary. Unless you were there, you wouldn't understand it. We're a strange breed, us Bakers.

It's been a very happy few days so far. So so so good to see my sister. She's about six months along, and she looks g-r-e-a-t. Let it never be said that preggo women aren't cute. Heidi looks absolutely adorable with her preggo belly, and she's finally put on a bit of much needed weight.
It's kinda surreal, y'know. I've been thinking a lot about how things were back in the 80's, when me and little sis were still young. When we'd climb fences together. When we'd get all the cushions in the house, put 'em at the bottom of the stairs, and see who could jump from the highest point.
There was never any competition. We just had fun together. I couldn't ask for a better friend in life. I love my sister dearly, and I know without a single doubt that I'm going to love her little girl just as much.


So 2009, once again, is shaping up to be quite the year for me. It's a time of great personal change, both within and without. I did a bit of Facebook spring cleaning the other day, and managed to delete about thirty or fourty people. The list is down to about 580 friends now. One person in particular is gone, and, well, I'm actually kinda glad. I've been pining over said person for over a year, and I've finally gotten the balls to let it go. I'm finally ready to move on from that useless grip she had on me. Any time I've mentioned it before, I was just fooling myself. But I feel from the bottom of my soul that I no longer have any desire to be attached to this person. I wasted a year of my life being the victim of unrequited love. Good bye, yellow brick road.

Now, with the whole outward change. I mentioned doing the pushups, and the pain from said pushups. Mind you, I'm still doing 'em. I am actually starting to notice a bit of difference in my shoulders. I finally have some muscle there. Finally. But the thing is, I find myself getting a little winded too soon into the pushups. I'm badly out of shape. Cardio is not my strong point.
Ahhhh that's all going to change, you see. I've been doing mad work on the treadmill lately. I think I'm finally ready to start jogging on it sometime this week. To say I've been pushing myself to the point of my legs going mooshy, well, that'd be a major understatement. But y'know what? It feels g-r-e-a-t. Quitting smoking is probably one of the best decisions I could've ever made.
I put on a bit of weight from quitting smoking, but that's why I'm doing the pushups and the treadmill work. I need/want to get into shape.

When I start up at MUN in September, I am going to be a whole new person. Anyone who's ever thought I couldn't amount to shit before? Well fuck you. You will see a side of me you never thought possible. I'm going above and beyond everything you ever thought I could do.

Confident? Cocky?
Maybe a little of both.

But like Jennifer Hudson said, you're gonna love me.


Ahh I'm gonna take off for a bit now... I need to get on the treadmill. Gonna go for a little walk.
Then it's hangin' out with the family. Family time is good. :)



Ohhhh I'll probably be lacking a little bit in the blog world for the next week. It's pretty distracting having everything going on around here. As much as I love my sister, she talks too much.
Hmm.....

I guess it runs in the family.