"Like a drifter, I was born to walk alone"

I'm pretty excited about something.
This Leona Lewis song I've talked about figuring out on piano? Better in Time, it's called.

Well, it seems like the song is going to be ALOT easier to figure out than I originally thought. I knew all the chords sounded familiar. It has the same four chords used in "Saltwater Joys" and "Save Tonight". Obviously they're in a different progression... I can't remember being this excited to sit in front of my piano in a long long time.
Is it kinda fruity that I want to learn a song by Leona Lewis?
Nahhhhh.... Music is music. Doesn't matter where you hear it, or who's singing. If you feel it, that's all that matters. And for whatever reason, I feel this tune. Ms. Lewis has an amazing voice.

Truth be told, she reminds me of someone who was once dear to me. That girl had (and still has, i hope) the voice of an angel. Nuff said.


So the next couple of months are going to be a little rough on me, both in an emotional and spiritual sense. As far as going through physical hardship, I'm not concerned. I can handle my own when it comes to matters of a physical sense.
But I've relied for so long on weed and alcohol (let's not forget cigarettes) as a crutch to get through the rough times, that I'm almost to the point where I want to say I'm frightened of how pressing these upcoming months will be.

Ahhh y'know what? F*k it. Really. I'm not saying f*k it to life. Far from it.
F*k it, in the sense that I don't need to worry about anything. The more I worry, well, the more I'll worry. Negativiy only breeds more negativity, and worrying about how hard it's going to be will only make things harder on me.

A book I read recently planted a seed in my head. It spoke of one's mind being like a garden. If you want to have nothing but lush, green grass... fragrant red roses... varieties of flowers one could only see in a picutre book at a flower shop... If that's what you desire in your mind's garden, then you've got to only think the purest, most positive thoughts.
Negativity could, in this sense, be compared to a weed. Just one negative thought would let a weed into your garden, and eventually you know damn well that weed will take over.

Well, that's my mindset. I do my best to get rid of the weeds on a daily basis. I hope you, whoever you are that chooses to pay attention to what I have to say, can take what I'm trying to convey here to heart.


I'm gonna try to take a new route from here on out... If you've read any of my previous journals/blogs on Facebook, most of them (as i'm sure you have noticed) have been about me.
Well, that's how I remember it.
And I think may have to do with my narcissism. Y'know what, though? No big deal. I love me. I'm pretty awesome.
But about the new route.... I need to grow. I need to step outside of my comfort zone.

I saw an option on this site that I have the option of writing more than one train of thought (if you will) here. This is gonna work out great for me, because I think it's high time I put some of my fictional writing up. Everything I've written on the internet up to this point has been completely autobiographical.
Think about it... how am I supposed to call myself a writer if I don't write?

Sure, this is writing... And I think I've exercised this particular muscle well enough for now. I am going to start attempting to write some more fictional works. Suuuuuuure, suuuuure, I have said I was gonna do that for awhile now. But now that I'm free from the bonds Facebook had me placed under, I have room to grow.

The interwebz is my playground.